Saturday, September 26, 2009

Enough already.

I'm realizing that one of the hardest things about being a mom is finding yourself in situations where there is no clear cut answer about what you should or should not do.

And there is no worse feeling than knowing your child is hurting and having to watch them experience any kind of discomfort.

Kaylee's been sick for over a month.

We've been home from the hospital almost 2 weeks now, and although she's not 100% better and will need a drainage of one ear and probably ear tubes, at least she's been getting better. Acting more like herself, eating more, no fevers, finally finished her umpteenth course of antibiotics.

And then today she wakes up with a snotty nose from hell and a high temperature that took a few hours to come down, even after we gave her Motrin and Tylenol.

Like I've said before, I do my best to be optimistic with whatever I'm up against, but this is just ringing all too familiar to me because it's exactly like her illness started out a month ago.

I can't help but think that maybe her ear is infected again, and the fact that she had such a serious complication of her ear infection that she landed in the hospital last time makes me ultra cautious about it.

We talked about taking her the ER this morning, but decided against it after her fever finally came down, and eventually stayed that way, even after several hours with no medications.

I'm just rambling, and I really don't have incredibly clear thoughts about this whole thing, except to say that I just want this to be over. I just want her to be WELL. I just want her to be able to carry on and be healthy like she has been up until this point.

It scares the heck out of me.


April said...

I sure hope you don't have a repeat of the last month. I hope that cute baby gets better and stays better.

Summer said...

I'm sooooo sorry, sweet girl! There is nothing worse than seeing your baby hurt and not being able to help them.

Hang in there....I'm praying for you guys!

Al and Ruth and Noelle said...

I'm so sorry! Sickness is just absolutely terrifying and I feel so helpless every time Noelle has gotten sick. I really hope Kaylee woke up feeling better this morning and that you're not heading down the same path again.

Lisa said...

My son had to have 2 sets of surgery for ear tubes. He was deaf for a while and the ear tubes made him hear again after 2 years though. The surgery is super easy and they are in and out within a few hours. It's not painful for them after either. At least it wasn't for my son. He went into surgery smiling and came out crying, the crying from him coming off the anestisai though and is normal.

I'm hoping your baby will be better once they get the surgery for the tubes. I'm not sure how old your baby is, but there are two childrens books you can read to them to explain ear tubes and the suregery. They worked great for my osn who was 4 at the time.

Anonymous said...

Poor girl! I hope she feels better soon.